Grow up

I guess what I really need is to grow up.

Always been talking about how much I'd want to travel the world alone, just be independent for a few months living without my parents, staying out of my comfort zone but I guess if that really happens, I can barely survive. As much as I hate to admit, I am still a child. I am still immature. I am still that little girl sheltered from all the dangers of this realistic world by my parents.

Scoring well gives you opportunities to choose. Choose the path you want to pursue in life. By not scoring well, the paths in life are gonna choose you. Local Us definitely don't have a place for me. And I know I will never be satisfied with SIM nor private Us. I am really hoping the life alone in a foreign country is going to be well for me. And I sincerely wish that I can just grow up, stop whining and that unfamiliarity is going to change me.

Why do I over think so damn much? Why make yourself stress when life ain't stressing you at all? You know what, I am so lame. I am planning what's gonna happen a year later already. God. Sometimes I just hope someone can understand me. Sometimes I hope I can understand me.